LML

OOhhhhhhh what temporary joy came from a lack of inhibitions. What beast I've become wanting to hold and trap you like a bear would do a harmless bunny. You, with such a strong and drawing personality, lulling people into your spell. You captivated and challenged me, and although I fought with my better judgement, I lost the battle. I should have known better than to fall so freely into your void. Should have's and could have's don't hold any emotional currency. It's too late to pretend that I should have known better, I knew perfectly well. From the start we both dodged responsibility with clauses and pretty painted empty words. You came into my life for a season, I just hoped that it was for more. We shared a minute, a memory, a few laughs, a few endearing glances. It's the impending demise that I can't grasp well enough to just let go.